Last week we did a photoshoot for the launch of my work label Hadasity‘s baby – our first clothing line PHOS which has been a childhood dream come true for me!⁠
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The whole of 2020 I was really enjoying working again, finding balance between my creative babies and being present with my ‘not quite so baby anymore’ girls at home.⁠
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Me and Mark have always wanted 3 kids, and while I knew it would happen (because of a dream I had received before Aletheia was born that I believe is from God), I was not quite so ready the last year. I kept saying and thinking – NOT YET GOD, if possible!⁠
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I had just gotten my “freedom” and could get into working on my businesses, enjoying having my other engines running again apart from mom. ⁠
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Interestingly, after launching PHOS, something we worked hard on for the last 6 months, and this baby was born -I was talking to God and surrendering the timeline to him. For the first time, I said OK GOD I know that it will happen in your perfect time and from experience with A and Z, I know that I can plan for kids and want kids but I only conceive in your time for my family and I put all my trust in Him and not my own efforts.⁠
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This time it wasn’t that I wanted kids SOON, but I was hoping for LATER. Yet, knowing that whenever it happened, I would not have to worry because if God gave my another, He would also give me the grace to manage.⁠
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When I discovered we were pregnant with #3 , the first thought of fear that came to attack me was to not announce that I am pregnant till I am 12 weeks IN CASE something happened to the baby – because that is what everyone does!⁠
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THEN, I immediately thought, that would be partnering with fear! That would be coming into agreement that something COULD happen to baby. That would be holding hands with fear and keeping silent for 8 weeks! ⁠
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There and then,I saw how strong these attacks come on moms and continued to fight these thoughts off in Jesus’s name. Any voice that is asking me to partner with Fear and not faith in God – is not of God and I will reject and not partner with it.

How is it that a mom of 2 healthy beautiful girls can still have such a thought enter my mind the 3rd time round? ⁠
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Mamas of Faith, if your trust is in God, know that you do not have to entertain these kind of thoughts because not all thoughts that enter your head are yours of from God! ⁠
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Just like how I fought this voice of fear with my first 2 children, with Aletheia and Zoe this pregnancy will be no less the same – I will declare in faith and announce that I am pregnant to testify of God’s goodness. ⁠
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The more there are voices trying to silence me, the more I speak. I will do the things opposite of fear because the enemy is always trying to silence instill fear in moms from the day they conceive!⁠
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A friend shared how she felt like things didn’t go as well for her as much as it does for me since I experience God’s goodness more. I told her that the truth is not that I don’t get attacked daily with voices of fear, doubt, offense etc. I choose to BATTLE. ⁠
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I recognize the voices as from the enemy and I don’t come into agreement with them.⁠
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I reject those thoughts in Jesus’ name and speak the truth of God word over the situations, my life, my pregnancy, my family, my children.⁠
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⁠There can be so many “what ifs” and scenarios of things that might not go our way trying to flood our thoughts daily, trying to cower us into a corner of unbelief that if we declare that God is good, thank GOD in advance, that we will “jinx” it if something goes wrong. ⁠
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EVEN THEN, we can still choose to BATTLE and PRAISE GOD in the midst of uncertainty and troubles. ⁠
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EVEN THEN, we can choose to wait in faith for things to turn around because there is nothing impossible for those that believe, and there is also nothing impossible for God. ⁠
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My last 2 pregnancies have taught me this -⁠
to always trust God and not BOW DOWN to fear and man made idols – even when everyone is, even when it cost you something. ⁠
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In the case of 3 young men in the book of Daniel, “Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego replied to him, ⁠
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“King Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you in this matter.⁠
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If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, ⁠
THE GOD WE SERVE IS ABLE TO DELIVER US FROM IT , AND HE WILL DELIVER US from Your Majesty’s hand. ⁠
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BUT EVEN IF HE DOES NOT, ⁠
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we want you to know, Your Majesty, ⁠
that we will not serve your gods ⁠
or worship the image of gold you have set up.” ⁠
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Daniel 3:16-18

Read about How I fought Fear off with BABY #1 and BABY #2.
It’s a journey but keep believing and fighting my friends!

Love in Christ,

Hadassah.